ah, it's been a roller coaster ride. i haven't had a drink for a whole day now. planning on just laying in bed today and reading a book, i haven't felt the best around people, i hardly do anyways. it's that hopeless feeling that climbs inside your skin and makes you want to not care, numb me up. i've also been letting women make me a little insane, they do that well, especially when you think you have attraction with one, but she doesn't turn out to be what you imagined her to be like.
i need a drink, but i'm cut myself off today. not forever, just today.
thus spoke zarathustra, i'm just read that today, not sure if it well help induce my health.
yesterday was beginning to feel like today.
thinking of the loneliness and all that you lack. ah, the bottle.
i have some ego when drunk.