Blowing My Hero

Gerard K H Love

Appreciate your friends
Rubbing is always good and usually theraputic, so I hope they appreciate it. I may have just been enlightened to the Bukowski world, but great fiction does not need witnesses other than the authur. Amber is like the guy who is marketing himself as the real Kramer in "Seinfeld".
 

bospress.net

www.bospress.net
authur? Do you mean author? I'm not sure as this is the second time that you have misspelled the word. Maybe it is an alternate version that I am not aware of.

Also, Amber is not like the "Real Kramer". She is a lady that wrote a memoir about her time with a famous author. I'm not sure how that would compare to a guy who had his quirkiness used as the inspiration for a tv character.

Do you find any use for any biographies or memoirs about authors. Many people will write about themselves in a way that is very different from reality. That is where a second opinion could give you the ability to understand that there are always two sides to any story.

If O.J. Simpson writes a book declaring that he is innocent, do you take that as fact because the author wrote it and there is no need for another viewpoint?

Bill
 

mjp

Founding member
I may have just been enlightened to the Bukowski world, but great fiction does not need witnesses other than the authur. Amber is like the guy who is marketing himself as the real Kramer in "Seinfeld".
I would just echo what Bill said, if that's your stance you are discounting all memoirs and biographies as useless. Which is fine if you only have a passing interest in an author. You don't need to know anything at all about the writer to enjoy the work.

You might have guessed though that this is a place for people with more than a passing interest in Bukowski, so most people here are going to find your statement idiotic.
 
Gerard K H Love said:
I was introduced to Bukowski in the winter of 2006 by my youngest daughter. She was playing the DVD "Born into This".
I'd be much more interested in that daughter! ( - No, you smartasses, NOT for sexual reasons!)
 

Rekrab

Usually wrong.
... having someone who may have been fictionalized in a story send their version to the readers is a distortion of the writers art ...

Do you not believe in the memoir as an art form or legitimate historical artifact? Amber's tale in no way distorts Bukowski's novel, WOMEN. It doesn't even touch it. They are two separate things, with different origins and intentions. That's like saying criticism (good or bad) somehows distorts the work criticized. It doesn't; it can't.
 

Gerard K H Love

Appreciate your friends
I can't hardly spell AUTHOR now you through MEMOIR in there. Yes, Amber has said her piece in "Born Into This"-deleted scenes. And I admit I was interested in seeing her and to hear her. So I am slowly retracting my complaint of her cry to say her piece. What do I know I am new and I don't hardly matter. Have a nice day and thank you for adjusting me. I know memoir now.
 

ROC

It is what it is
Threw - past tense of throw.

Through - In the course of, from one point to another, etc.

Dingus - you.
 

Rekrab

Usually wrong.
... What do I know I am new and I don't hardly matter. Have a nice day and thank you for adjusting me...

Hi, Gerald K H Love. Being new here doesn't mean that what you say doesn't matter. Welcome...post away. Hopefully, people on this forum will evaluate what you say on its own merits, whether you're new or have posted a thousand times. If what you say makes sense, they'll entertain it. If it doesn't make sense, they'll knock it down. Nothing personal about that. To attack Amber because she wrote about her own life and how it intersected with Bukowski's life just doesn't make much sense to me. That's why I argued it. But no hard feelings. Feel free to state your opinions, and we'll react. Of course, if you say something completely off the charts, the moderator may run out of patience, but that takes special effort on your part. He's a very patient man.

An aside: elsewhere you said Amber looked good in BORN INTO THIS, and so maybe she was okay (or something along those lines). That, to me, is irrelevent. She could be as ugly as a post and still have something valid to say about Bukowski. Just my two cents (and I am often full of shit).
 
More than one hero

Dear Bukowski.netter's

You'all are my heroes now. I'm very serious! When a line gets crossed, you are right there. Many thanks.

:) Amber
 

1fsh2fsh

I think that I think too much
Founding member
I just recieved a nice little package with a San Pedro Postmark in the mail!!!! I'm just so damn happy!! (with just a slight bit of disapointment:() this is great tho, really!! thanks to everyone involved!!! (you know who you are!)
 

Bukfan

"The law is wrong; I am right"
I too received Ambers book today. Just great! I'm looking forward to reading it. Thanks a lot Amber and mjp! :)
 
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1fsh2fsh

I think that I think too much
Founding member
Postmark?... return address?... ya, what the hell?... my mistake, whataya expect.......
 

Erik

If u don't know the poetry u don't know Bukowski
Founding member
Got it.
Crossed the Atlantic in only 5 days! Amber must live (or work) near the airport.
Good clean read. The style actually gives the impression of a young person, twentyish - just like the main character. Liked that.
Also liked the scene describing the "blowing of the Hero". Rather tenderly done, actually, and contrasts well with the rather harsh sounding title.
Good one Amber!
 

Rekrab

Usually wrong.
Amber -- a fine piece of work. I'm no professor, but you get an A on this one. It's honest, sincerely, lean, filled with light and humor. That scene in the bar where Bukowski says "You know, I don't look so bad," revealing his insecurity about his appearance -- that is remarkable. You resisted the temptation to make yourself look good, and were very open about your own insecurities. As a result, we learn you are short, shy, worry a lot, don't like your front teeth, don't consider yourself beautiful -- like a "prom queen" -- and it all makes you so likeable, so real. Bukowski was lucky to be involved with you. The unadorned firsthand observations in your memoir are the reason why an account like yours is so valuable to understanding Bukowski. The book may be only a few pages, but it tells us things we'll never read in biographies written by people who didn't know the man personally. By the way -- I didn't even miss the cut-out Bukowski letters. The book doesn't need them. Sure, they would have been a nice extra, but your memoir stands on it's own. It deserves far wider readship. Thanks for sharing your story with us, and for your patient, articulate and insightful posts here.
 

hoochmonkey9

Art should be its own hammer.
Moderator
Founding member
Amber, it came today in the mail and I immediately sat down and read it. Honest and at times touching. I'm glad your story is out there. This is not a "Me too" memoir, you should be proud.
Thanks Amber and mjp for making this volume available.
 
You fellows have been a bright spot in my life too. Many thanks, and I'm happy that these few pages which have been boxed up in various spots for years now have been fun for you to read.

Since retiring, a group of us have been meeting for dinner once a month. One of the instructors wanted to read my story. When I brought it to the table, he said, "Oh, oh, I didn't know what the title was!" I gave him a plain brown manila envelope to carry it home in!
 
When I brought it to the table, he said, "Oh, oh, I didn't know what the title was!"
yet another funny little anecdote! I like these!

Now since everybody here says thanks to you in public, I'll have to state again, what I already PMd you, so the others know I'm no sucker who's just Taking:

It was so very FUNNY and entertaining to read and had a great Lot of WARM moments. And it is just the right complementary statement to the story as appeared in 'Women'. (note: Not 'contrary'! - complementary!)
I read it straight through.
It shines a bright light on your relationship in special as well as on Buks attitude to his girls at this time in general, I think.

I thank you a Lot for sharing! in your book as well as here on the forum.
Love, roni

and, p.s., of COURSE, my thanks go also to our mastermind mjp!
 

Bukfan

"The law is wrong; I am right"
Amber - I enjoyed your story very much! It's Well written, warm, witty and funny. It's also very honest. You certainly did'nt wipe your own shortcomings under the carpet - and that takes guts! You also described Buk in a kind understanding way. No doubt those few days together with him means something to you. It's a great story!
Thanks a lot for the book, Amber! And thanks a lot, mpj, for making it happen!
 

Domator

Founding member
Well, i haven't time for forum now :(, but I just want to say, that book arriwed to me week ago maybe earlier, never mind. But thanks Amber and thanks mjp. Good job!
 

Rekrab

Usually wrong.
... One of the instructors wanted to read my story. When I brought it to the table, he said, "Oh, oh, I didn't know what the title was!" I gave him a plain brown manila envelope to carry it home in!

Amber -- very funny! If his wife sees it, and knows he's been having dinner with you once a month, he'll be sleeping on the couch. That title does get your attention, and it took moxy (Buk slang alert) to use it. The story delivers more than that great title promises. Excellent writing.
 

BilkoJoe

Founding member
As you may or may not know, Blowing My Hero is the story of Amber O'Neil's visit to Los Angeles in the 1970's to meet Bukowski.
Folks looking through stuff in the roofspace and came across a number of things from Red Stodolsky that I haven't looked at in ages... thought you might like to see cover attached... firing most of it on eBay over the next few weeks.. doubt any amazing discoveries out there, still my dough is on finding a few little gems...

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mjp

Founding member
Just to clarify, since this has come up again, Martin did not forbid or prohibit Amber from distributing Blowing My Hero. He asked her not to publish any further copies, saying that it was okay to sell the 500 she had made. Amber has her own reasons for not wanting to sell them, and that's her business. But Martin's correspondence pretty clearly gave her a green light to go ahead and sell the books.

Of course the longer they stay in a box in her house the more valuable the copies that are out there become. But this could eventually become another Going Modern if she ever does let all the copies out onto the market. Going Modern was supposedly "suppressed," but in reality, all 500 copies were sold to book dealers. Which is why you can buy it for $25 or $30 and Blowing My Hero is more likely to set you back $100 or more.
 

LickTheStar

Sad Flower in the Sand
Can't wait to track down a copy of my own some day. Thanks for the clarification, I, too, was confused about the limitations on the book.
 
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