I just feel to answer your question about my private thoughts regarding a gin drunk would be presenting my private demon to the world. That somehow lessens the intimacy, and I rather enjoy that intimacy.
Okay. That's cool.
Just to be clear, I wasn't really fishing for any personal information. It doesn't really concern me if you get juiced up and trash your house, go to the chinese massage parlour for happy ending, or calmy sit back and read Marcus Aurlieus.
Mostly I asked not necessarily because I think you are the numero uno expert on getting soused, but because I think you write well. If your forum handle was "cheap plumber" I'd probably ask you to write something about monkey wrenches.
With that said, I suppose it is of personal interest for me to know something about how we think when we are outside ourselves (or inside, same difference). I've got one eye open for a "champagne drunk" (never met one). I'd like to know how that buzz goes, and the hangover to boot.
I try not to be too idealistic about these things though. For example, I read a book about absinthe some years ago. In it was a sort of drinking biography of some of the greats: Baudelaire, Rimbaud, St. Van Gogh, even Saintlier Artaud. To know that they all had a similar experience in which at a certain point the beauty that the absinthe covered them with transformed into simultaneous images and feelings of ugliness and evil was simply interesting for me. BUT, the reality: absinthe was a cheap, hardcore drunk for many a poor person which had nothing to do whatsoever with sublimity or art.
I not only respect not wanting to expose your "personal demons" but think much the same way. Much too special a thing for a computer forum.
As for Marcus Aurlieus, I hope that example wasn't lost on you. Thinks clearly and objectively never relinquishing his dark side.