with a five day beard trippin my feet up, an a whiskey moss growin over the eyelids, pinnin them back like the glare a some cross-eyed whore. strugglin wi the guts to keep the vomit out my gob. barnardos second hand book store was the only shop with no heatin system, and here i was feeling less like a toasted tuna sandwhich in a bus driver's back pocket.
i laid eyes 'pon this here name sounding vaguely foreign, BUKOWSKI. shit, i shelled out ?4 for a buncha shit balzac last week in the same state, this can't be any worse.
Dangling in the Tournefortia. tourne, tourne, tourne, i'm feelin ill now, an the acid gathers at the back of the gullet, but i've heard if'n y'can smile, it supresses the GAG REFLEX. i'm smiling.
open that son of a bitch up lest i poke yr eyes out with hot fuck son. page 87.
read on.
sway on.
smile on.
then I turn on the tv to the
morning soap operas
and I am glad that I don't live
with any of those women
they are always getting pregnant and are
always unhappy
with their doctors and lawyers.
I snap the set off
consider masturbating
reject that and
take a bath instead.
the phone rings, it's my
girlfriend: "what are you
doing?"
"nothing."
"what do you mean, 'nothing'?"
"I'm in bed."
"in bed? it's almost noon."
"I know."
"why don't you take a walk?"
"all right."
*
I get up, get dressed and go outside.
I walk south on Western
I walk all the way to Santa Monica Boulevard
go into Sears Roebuck.
there's a blue jean sale on.
I purchase a pair for under $10.
I take the escalator down
and in the candy section
I buy a large bag of popcorn.
then I stroll through the hardware section
looking at tools that I have no interest in,
then to the electrical section
where I stand looking at a series of
sun lamps,
jamming the popcorn into my mouth
and feeling like a total
asshole.
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i cough up the ?1.50 for this, because the guy makes sense to me right now.
the green charity shop bag stinks a moth balls, an the book reeks a damp, i step out in to the coleraine street, 3.30pm saturday, a pram rolls past with some water-headed idiot child on board, wavin some piece of shit dog toy out it's yap an i vomit over the pavement an the outside of the green charity bag. i wipe the chunks a chicken an rice out of the beard an slosh the bag round a puddle for a few seconds, buy a bottle of Tesco's own brand scotch ?3.49, walk home. read the rest of the book an phone my ex-girlfriend at four am.