Well, Charles Bukowski pretty much alluded to the fact that he tried some dick in his day and was told to keep it under wraps.
Here is a section from "The Most Beautiful Woman in Town" story "Ten Jack-Offs"
"I maybe writing this down by myself, leaving a few things out (I have been threatened by various powerful forces for doing things that are only normal and gaga gladful to do)
and I get into my eleven year old car
and now I have driven away
find myself here
and write you here a little illegal story of
love
beyond myself
but, perhaps, understandable to
you.
yours truly,
Sanchez and Bukowski
p.s. "” this time the Heat missed. don't keep more than you can swallow: love, heat or hate."